Don't be Afraid of Getting Hurt

" Don't fall in love. You'll just get hurt in the end"

         Whoever gave you this piece of advice, let me give you another, don't listen to them. It's nonsense! Not to mention, impossible! Come on people, do you expect to believe that a person will never fall in love, not even once in their lives? And again, I will say, IMPOSSIBLE!!! Nonsense! It's in our nature to love, is it not? If we don't love then the world will just be a sad place where people only hate each other and curse at one another. Can you imagine living in a world without love?  The world we're living in right now is already full of hate but at least there's still enough love left. Am I right?

 Love + music = peace

          Some people are afraid to fall in love because they don't want to get hurt by love. Oh, please. If you're too afraid of getting hurt then you'll never find happiness in this life. Getting hurt is a part of life. It's how you learn and grow. Getting hurt helps you to be strong. Don't be afraid of getting hurt because after all the pain happiness will catch you. Then you'll look back and feel grateful that you've experienced something that made you who you are today and then you'll realize how blessed you are. It may not be easy but it's worth it.

Even a fortune cookie can give you good advice.. haha~

          

          Yes, it's true that when you fall in love for the first time and it didn't work out with your first love, it'll hurt like hell because it's your first time but then you'll meet someone else and fall in love again or maybe you won't but you'll soon heal from those wounds but those scars will remain as scars.. yeah, it sucks if you couldn't fall in love again but that rarely happens, right? Well, I hope so. So don't worry about getting hurt. Everybody gets hurt by love. Love hurts. That's just the way it is. Always has been and always will be. You can't change it even if you want to. Think of it this way. If you don't get hurt sometimes then love will be dull and boring. No excitement at all. No growth. No lesson learned. When you get hurt or dumped by someone you love then you can look back and learn from your mistakes. What happened? Where did you go wrong? From there, you grow.

          So people, here's a piece of advice from me. Never be afraid of falling in love. And one more thing just because you're in love with someone, it doesn't mean you can do things that you shouldn't do with that person. You get what I'm trying to say, right? Who says love have no boundaries? Sometimes it does. Hehehehe.. Fikir2 kan lah mksudku...

Where is the love?

Just askin'

On Energy Saving Mode

    People, just because I like to sleep a lot, it doesn't mean I'm lazy. I'm just on energy saving mode. Don't believe me. Saving energy for what? Of course, for important things like studying, doing house chores, etc. Let me translate that. Studying and doing house chores actually mean sleeping and watching tv. Both needs energy. Kekekeke. So if anyone tells you that you're lazy because you like to sleep a lot, don't let it bring you down because apparently, sleeping does needs energy and using your energy to do something means that you're not lazy. Conclusion: you are not lazy. Actually, the more you sleep, the more hard-working you are. Hahahaha!!! I'm just being ridiculous. You're probably wondering what my point is and what the hell am I going on about.

     Sleep is a need! It's a NEED, people!!! (so, please let me have my sleep). We need sleep to rest. Yes, we need rest. We're only humans. When we sleep we're on energy saving mode. Jyeahhh~ So for those who like to sleep a lot, you can tell you're mom that you're not wasting you're energy sleeping.. you're actually saving your energy.. BUAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! I'm teaching you people nonsense, huh? Hahahah!!! Poisoning our generation's minds with things like these.. Ahahahah!!! Oh, whatever. I know most of you probably like to sleep a lot too so don't complain.. (who's complaining, Farah? No one's complaining..)

      Aaaaanyway, I want to write about one of my favourite thing (hehehehe) in this entry which is... yes, you guessed it.. It's SLEEP!!! Booyaahhh!! (tringat sape ek? hehehe) I like sleeping.. Well, who doesn't? I like to sleep late and wwake up late.. Muahahah!!! I hate waking up early in the morning.. Of course I have to wake up and pray... Then I go back to sleep but I can only do that during the holidays... Waaaaa!!!!! I can be really cranky in the morning and if I don't get enough sleep.. So if you see me early in the morning and I look like someone you don't want to mess with, well, you better don't then. I can be scary. I think.

      Sometimes, I don't get enough sleep because, I just can't seem to put my mind at rest.. I just can't sleep.. I'm not sure if I did sleep sometimes because it did't feel like I did. It's like my eyes are closed but my mind is still aware of my surroundings. It's like I didn't even fell asleep. Is that insomnia? Is it? Hmmm... And one of the things I hate when I try to sleep is that when I want to sleep.. I just can't sleep but when I'm doing something, I feel sleepy.. Really, really, really sleepy. That's why I always fell asleep in class. I can't take it.

TOO. SLEEPY. 

CAN'T. OPEN. EYES. ANY. LONGER.

MUST. SLEEP.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...

"Whoa! How long was I out?"

 One time, while I was sleeping during Malaysian Studies Class, this happened.

phone vibrated.

One message.

"Tidooo"

Cisssss!!!!

So I woke up.

Then another message.

"Tido la blik"

again CISSSSS!!!!

Hahahaha!!!

To the person who sent me those messages..

Thank you so much for waking me up..

and then telling me to go back to sleep..

Hehehehe..

FYI, I wasn't angry at you.

Heeeee :)

      Another thing that I hate when I'm sleeping is that when I'm in dreamland and I had an awesome dream.. The dream didn't even have an ending yet and then ooopppss!!! I woke up. WHAAAAAATTTTTT?????

Like seriously???? (pnjam ayt seseorg) I hate it when that happens. Come on! I actually get to dream what I've always wanted in real life and I can't even get to finish my dream.. Perghhh!! What's the point of dreaming if you have to wake up half way? *sigh* Story of my life. (on depressed mode).

        Urggghhh!!! I hate it when this happens- when I wake up and realise it was only a dream.. Whhhyyyyy???? I want it to be real... WAAAAAAA!!!! Oh, why must it only be a dream? (again on depressed mode)

        Even though there are some things I hate about sleeping but I will always be "Sleeping Beauty". Ehemmm.... Prasan je lbih minah ni. Conclusion: People who likes to sleep are not lazy. They're just on saving energy mode. It's nonsense, really. Don't believe me. :)

Ps: I'm soooooooo hungry. Somebody, please feed me.. Hahahahah!!! Pegi la msk!! Pemalas!!!

      Can't. Saving energy. (pnyepak skit) Hehehehe...

       Sape leh blanje pizza? hehehehe..

Nmpk cm sdp tp nmpk cm x halal pulak...

Lapoooooo!!!!

K bye!

Thanks for reading!

   

Be strong for me

I'll be quitting my job as an assistant teacher soon. There's only two more weeks left. I'm gonna miss my kids a lot. Notice what I just did there? I used to write"the kids" but now it's "my kids" because they are my kids. I guess I can understand why they say a teacher is like you second parents. To be honest, I can't wait to quit, I'm tired.. and I want some rest before going back to college. But the thing is I'm kinda worried about one of my students. Her name is Ardini.

She used to be my morning session student but all of my morning students have gone to Teacher Kiran's and Teacher Mani's class after I didn't come to work for three days because I had a fever. Teacher Kiran's will be handling the 5 year olds and Teacher Mani will handle the 6 years old. So now I'll be assisting Teacher Kiran so I still get to see my 5 year old students, Ardini, Haikal and Maisarah. When they were in my class, Ardini was always the slowest one so I always scold her more than I did her friends. But even so, I always tell her and my other students the reason why I always scold them. It's because I love them and I want them to be smart kids. They understood. Well, at least I think they did. Heeeee.. 

Even though, I scold her more than I did her friends, she has always liked me. Maybe because I always hugged her when it's time to go home. I hugged all of them. And maybe because, I'd talk to her. Maybe because she saw my sincerity. Who knows what she's thinking? She always smiles at me when she looks at me and she likes to talk to me. And even while she talks she keeps smiling at me. She seemed happy when I was teaching her but when I came back to work, she wasn't the Ardini I knew. She doesn't smile as much as she did then. I noticed. 

See how happy she was?

Maisarah (left) and Ardini (right)

Maisarah, Haikal and me

The other day, I asked her and Haikal if they missed me. They said that they like it even me more when it was me who was teaching them. Ardini said didn't like teacher Kiran teaching her. She always scold her. The other kids in her class are all very smart and Ardini is very slow so I guess she couldn't take it. I know it kinda be irritating but it's not like she wanted to be that way. At least she's trying. I used to scold her a lot when I was teaching her too but I never made her cry. She cried in front of me and I wiped her tears away. 

I told her that I'm not going to be here any more because I'm going to quit so she has to listen to teacher Kiran when she is teaching and she has to speak louder. Teacher Kiran always scold her because Ardini when she speaks.. It's not loud enough. I think it's because she's scared. When I was teaching her, she can speak loud enough for me to hear. You can't push her too hard. She's only 5.

I hope she'll be strong for me and not cry all the time when I'm not there for her.. Be strong for me, Ardini...