I want a son!

Yes. When I get married and have children, I want a son first.. mainly because I like cute little boys more than cute little girls. Don't worry, people. I'm not a pedo. I just think boys are cuter than girls. Muahahaha!!

 But of course, that doesn't mean I don't like little girls. I have girl students that I really like. Natalie for example. Hehehe. She's cute especially when she's dancing. I just saw her dancing to Jenifer Lopez's "On The Floor" and that popular song people just love to put in their blogs, "Price Tag" today. She just shook her hips and body but she's so damn cute!!! Hahaha!! My little Natalie and her cuteness..

 I should have a daughter like Natalie. Always telling me stories with no ending and telling me I'm pretty. Yep. Please let me have a daughter like this one day. Hahaha!! But the thing is with daughters is that, they're all cute and lovable when they're little but when they become a teenager, they annoy you and start to rebel. I know because.. well, I was like that to.. and probably still am.

Back to the point, I really want first born child to be a boy. Heee.. then when he'll be a big brother and protect his little brothers and sisters. I won't have to worry about the little ones if I teach him to be a good big brother. If I have a son, I want to teach him to be a responsible man. To be a gentleman and to protect all women. Wah!! Would't it be great if my son became all women's dream man? hahahaha!! Yeah.. I want to raise my son to be like that. Too much? heeee..

One thing for sure. I will never want my son to turn to be one of those jerks who does nothing but make a trash out of their lives.. Urgh! Those kind of people disgust me. If my future son ever turn out to be like that...
then someone please kill me then. Shoot me.. Hang me.. Stab me or whatever.. Because watching my son become like that has already killed me inside.. (over reacting much?)

Enough with the drama.. If I ever had a son, I want him to be a good man. A man I can be proud of.

Anyway, I have already found my dream son. Hahahah!! I like this kid mainly because he's cute.. Wahahhaha!!!

He's my number one favourite student. He doesn't talk much but when he does.. he's just cute with his expressionless face.. hahaha.. He's only four years old and already he has that play-hard-to-get attitude. The girls are going to crazy for this kid. He also has a killer smile. But too bad that you also bite the girls that gets in your way. Like last time you bit Erina's hand when she took the toy that you were playing.. and I told your grandma about it and you got mad at me. Then when I asked whether you like me or not after what happened you just shook your head. You broke my heart that day, Reza.. How could you? But then Last Friday as I was playing wit Erina, you just watched from a far with that cute, expressionless face of yours and then you came and joined us. I asked you again whether you like me or not. Only then you nod your head.

Hmmmph!!! You were mad at me because I told your grandma on you. didn't you? Kids these days.. They are so rebellious. It's a good thing that you're cute and that you're still just four years old, Reza. Hahaha!

              

The son I never had... 

Hahaha!!

Message to my future son:

Dear son,

I don't know whether I'm going to have a son or not in the future but I hope I will and that son would be you.

I hope that you'd be an extremely cute son.. (mntak lbih2 ni) Heheheh.. Hey, mommy's gotta have a cute son, ok. Hahaha! I just hope that I could be a good mother to you and raise you right enough to the person I wanted you to be and the person you want yourself to be that is a good person. No son of mind wants to be a bad person, ok? Also, my son.. Remember, as you grow up you're going to make a lot of mistakes along the way.. and I mean a lot.. Because I did. So you should always remember to learn from those mistakes and never repeat them again. And when you fell in love for the first time.. bear in mind that it might not last forever. 

And you're going to get your heart broken many times until you meet the right person.. That special someone whose going to love you for the rest of her life. Don't rush to find love because love will find you. Wait, my son, and be patient.. Because good things happen to those who wait. And son, as you journey your beautiful and wonderful life.. know that the road can be difficult sometimes. You might hit rock bottom but if I were to ever raise you right, I know you will get back on your feet. Reach for your dreams and live a good life.

Love,

Your mother.

Pergghhhhh!!!! ayt x leh blaaaa der...

P.s: Somebody please buy me this dress.. Puh-lease!!!!!

I want it!!!

My Lovely Natalie

"Once upon a time, there was a little Teacher Farah.. is pretty!"

"And then what happened?"

"She buy cake. The end"

Whatttt?? Just like that? I didn't even get to eat the cake, Natalie.. 

What a cruel story..

Hahaha!!

Yes.. This was one of the conversations that I had with little Natalie.

She likes to make up stories about me

but all of her stories starts the same way and most of them don't even have the ending.

Just the intro.

But it's still sweet.

Natalie is my five year old student.

Yep.

She's Chinese..

and speaks English most of the time..

When I think about leaving that place, I think about who I'm gonna miss.

I thought about little Natalie.

I'll probably miss her "one upon a time" stories which almost never had an ending.. 

except for that one time where I didn't get to eat the cake that I bought.

But does that even count as an ending?

This kid says the cutest and the silliest things..

Always make me smile and laugh with the thing she says..

Me: Natalie, Where is your house?

Natalie: My house in Malaysia.

Me: (laughs) My House is also in Malaysia.

Natalie: I in one Malaysia.

Me: (laughs again)

Cute, right?

Natalie seemed to really like me.

She likes to high 5 me a lot and tell me I'm pretty.

But her high fives are pretty hard.

Hahahah!!!

Did you actually want to just give me a high 5 or did you want to hurt my hands?

Hahahah!!

It's a good thing that you're cute.

I remember that day when I made up a story about you.

"Once upon a time there was a little Natalie. She went to buy a cake and she ate it with Kuen Ling!"

"No, I eat with Teacher Farah"

"You want to eat with me? Chocolate cake?"

"Strawberry cake!"

I smiled when you said you wanted to eat the cake with me.

How cute.

You must really like me, huh?

Well, I like you too, Natalie.

You're cute and sweet.

You always make me laugh and smile.

You're my very own little angel.

One time, I was seating while waiting for the kids parents.

Then Natalie...

You came to me and sat on my lap

saying that you wanted to sit on my lap.

Boy, you are very heavy for a five year old.

What did you eat?

A horse?

Hahahah!!!

I was holding my Daily lesson plan book

where I record the outcomes of all of my daily lessons.

Then you took the book and open it and said that you were going to tell me a story.

Hahahah!!

Oh, but dear Natalie..

That book is not a storybook..

How silly..

"Teacher Farah.."

"What?"

"You are pretty"

"Thank you. You are pretty too"

Yes, you are pretty too Natalie.

Very pretty.

Very pretty indeed.

Ape Nk Jadi?

Jumaat lps ntah knp dgn student2 aku ni.. ade je bnde dorg wat kn.. even my little Reza?

Oh, mngape begini?

My student's are good children..

How can this be?

Walopun Reza wat nakal cmni tbe2 tp brbanding dgn pe yg Zarith wat tu..

Hal Reza tu kecik je..

Ari tu aku lebih kecewa pd Zarith..

Reza x la kecewa sgt..

Die msih kecik lg.. bru 4 thun n perbuatan die tu xdela teruk sgt.

Cmni ceritanye..

That day, adk student kls aku, msuk haven learning yg kt Sua Damai..

Tmpt kteorg la..

Sbelom ni die tadika kt haven learning kt Sua Rasa.

Tp boss kata nk die dtg sni sbb kt sne die sorg x dpt nk socialize ngan org.

Nme bdk 2 Dariah Erina adk student kls aku yg brnme Dariah Batrisya.

Berbeza btol adk die dr akak die..

Akak die snyap.. x ckp sgt..

kalo ckp pun suara perlahan nk mampos!

Pastu ssh btol nk ngajr die..

Mcm xmau usaha nk paham jerr..

Sume kne suap..

Haih..

Mmg slalu kne mrh la kakak die ni..

Erina ni cm friendly skit aku tgk die..
die cm excited tgk rmai kwn2..
Tbe2 die mnangis.. tgk tgn die ade bekas kena gigit..
Rpe2nye Reza gigit die..
BIAR BETOL??
Reza yg good boy tu buat??
Aku p la tnye Reza nape gigit Erina..

Me: Reza, knp Reza gigit die?
Reza: Die ambik mainan.
Me: Die amik mainan? laaaa.. share la.. die kn kwn... kte share2 la..
Len kli share taw?
Reza: (angguk2)

Blik 2 aku bgtaw nenek die ape dh jd.. nenek die mcm taw2 je tbe2 tnye aku.
"Kwn die tu perempuan ek?"
aku pun jwb je la ye.
Hmmmm..
Apekah mksudnye itu?
hehehehe..

Tp Reza still 4 years old..
Nnt die ok la kot dgn Erina.

Yg wat aku btol2 kecewa ari tu.. Zarith..
Time tu time blik..
Aku tunggu la dgn dorg.. tunggu transport dorg smpai nk antr dorg..
Pastu tbe2 bdk2 ni pggil

"Teacher2, Zarith bukak bjy Damia"

What?? bkak bju Damia??
Aku agk trkejut gak ah..
Sblum ni aku dh ajr dorg.. dh ckp kt dorg beberape kli..
Laki n perempuan xleh pluk2 cium2..
Aku taw dorg kcik ag tp zmn skrg ni bdk2 dh trdedah dgn byk bnde x elok.
Lbih baik ajr skrg..

Aku ape lg.. Marah ah wei..
Aku pggil Zarith suro turun dtg kt aku..
Die sengih2 xmau trun..
Aku naik tangga.. tarik telinga die.. pastu pkul tgn die..
Dh die gne tgn nk bkak bju Damia kn..
Gatal sgt tgn tu..

Aku mrh2 die n ulang blik pe yg aku ckp kt dorg psl laki n pompuan
xleh pluk cium2 tu..
Biar Zarith tu kne pkul dpn kwn2 die..
Biar die malu skit..
Nnt xyah wat dh..

Lps 2 aku suro Damia trun dudk jauh dr Zarith..
aku tnye Damia pe yg Zarith wat.
Die kata Si Zarith tu p tarik bju die n tgk dlm.
Aku ape lg..
Aku ckp kt bdk2 len kalo nmpk Zarith wat ag ngtaw aku..

Haih..
Kecewa taw x..
Kecewa..
Yg si Zarith tu dok trsengih2..

Dh tu bkn tu je..
Ptg tu mk Farah, classmate si Zarith tu call
kata yg Zarith tendang Farah smpai bleeding.
Bnde ni brlaku dlm van time dorg blik..
Ape nk jd ni, Zarith?
Bkn Zarith bdk baik?
Knp tbe2 Zarith wat cmni?
Haih...
Bru 6 thun dh wat perangai cmni..
Aku xtaw la cmne nnt lps aku dh brhnti keje weh..
Aku tgk teacher len wat xtaw je psl hal Zarith bkak bju Damia
sbb teacher lg sorg tu taw.
Mse 2 bdk2 tu bgtaw teacher Mani yg Zarith bkak bju Damia.
Reaksi die cmni je
"hah? bkak bju Damia.. Tahape2 la bdk2 ni"

Whatttt?????
Seriously??
Cmtu je??
Aku dh dgr cmtu je reaksi die aku ckp lg skali kt bdk2
tu kalo Zarith wat ag bgtaw aku..
ye la knn.. kalo bgtaw teacher len pastu x wat pape nk watpe?

haih..
Tggal sbulan je aku keje situ..
Lps 2 ape nk jd dgn bdk2 ni?