Saturday, January 8, 2011

No Matter How Hard I Cry

Even though I know how much I hate myself right now,
How much I hate myself for being scared,
For being so weak,
And for being so useless,
I couldn't stop myself.

No matter, no matter how I try to hide it from the world,
I know that I couldn't hide it from myself,
But still I try to lie to myself,
Try to convince myself, try to fool myself,
Into thinking that everything will be okay.

No matter how hard I cry,
No matter how hard I scream,
No tears fall, no sound can be heard,
But why does it feel like it did?
Why does it hurt?

No matter how I try to calm myself,
No matter how much I beg for help,
This heart can't hold on any longer,
This weak and fragile heart,
Is just too scared of this cruel world.

Everyday and every night, I pray to Him,
Asking Him to give me confidence,
To give me courage,
So that I can face this world with a calm heart,
And with strong faith.

Every second, every second my heart aches,
With fear of being hurt,
Of being left alone,
Of loosing something precious,
Of having to face this cruel world.


No matter how hard I cry,
No matter how hard I scream,
No tears fall, no sound can be heard,
But why does it feel like it did?
Why does it hurt?


No matter how I try to calm myself,
No matter how much I beg for help,
This heart can't hold on any longer,
This weak and fragile heart,
Is just too scared...


Written by: Farah Munirah Bt Roslan Johari













6 comments:

adibahhh said...

dude! I can feel your feling in this poem, in fact I feel it to -.-"

ohh btw, I feel so much better right now =,="

it is a great feeling that I can think straight and more focus!

thanks to you and anati of course for giving me advices and support here!

minggu ni kte nak balik jugak rumah =,="

farah said...

dude! mmg best la ckp dude ni... ur welcome, dude!!! kte pun blik gak, dude.. anati blik x, dude? hahah... dude!!!

adibahhh said...

ehhh kenapa tak tukar mun?

rasanya anati tak balik,dia kan dah start minggu exam.

dude!

farah said...

tkar pe jd mun? tkar nme kte 2 ke? ala.. kalo korg pun pggil kte mun sape nk pggil kte farah? heheh..

adibahhh said...

sbb bwh post ni awk gne mun. kte sebenarnya ske lagi farah tapi awk dah bahsakan diri awk tu. kte saje je la tanya nape tak letak mun? tp jgn risau kte still panggil awk farah!

farah said...

kte ske sume nme yg org pggil kte.. mun pun best.. farah pun best.. munirah pun best.. farah munirah pun best... sume nme 2 mmg sbhagian diri kte.. huhu..

 

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